Monday, September 14, 2009
Into your hands
I commit again
with all I am
to you Lord
You hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and i am yours
forever.
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're The Reason That I Live
The Reason That I sing
With All I am
I'll walk with You
wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
and I will live in all of Your ways
Your promises
Forever
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
With All I Am
i will worship
i will worship you
i will worship you
i will worship you
I promise, never to shed a single tear for this world anymore.
God, I love you.
smiles (:
I commit again
with all I am
to you Lord
You hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and i am yours
forever.
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're The Reason That I Live
The Reason That I sing
With All I am
I'll walk with You
wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
and I will live in all of Your ways
Your promises
Forever
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
With All I Am
i will worship
i will worship you
i will worship you
i will worship you
I promise, never to shed a single tear for this world anymore.
God, I love you.
smiles (:
Sunday, September 13, 2009
today was quite a phew.
i managed to made it for BMT(A), but i was intending to go for main service as well.
BMT ended at 12noon. and the whole thing was quite a rush with 5mins of break in between. lol.
when BMT ended,went down with Aaron. at first we wanted to buy green tea for Cheryl, then realised that we didnt have the money. haha.
When we were in NTUC, this was what happened...
called mum, asked if i can go for main...
she shouted me down...
in long johns: "Should i go or not ar??" *talking to myself*
alright, i will go no matter the cost.
my conviction, from today onwards, is THIS: I will respond to the call of God, no matter what the cost,i will go for Him!!!!
then i was determined, despite knowing that i would get into trouble.
then my sister called, and told something about being wise, which was quite true. and i hesitated. really hesitated. i started to doubt, to waver, shaken so powerfully that i lost sight, and i was so confused.
sorry Marcus, i let you see the emo side of me. haha...
at that point, i seriously didnt thought of anything else, except for : next week bmt, shouts,quarrels, cold war, dissapointments.
i felt so lost at that time and i got so confused. my mind wasnt right, it went straight off the main road.
at that time, i didnt even thought of seeking God. gosh.
i just sat there, lost. stared. debated.
went to macs with Marcus, had a great talk with him.
at that point, i was, completely, lost. i didnt even had a clear thinking. i was worked up, nervous, heart pumping like crazy, swallowed lots of saliva, you can tell how worked-up i was at that time. haha.
i think, what Marcus said was quite true, which really impacted me alot.
Walk this Christian walk and never look back.(by Pastor Lia)Dont look to the left, to the right, just FOCUS on God!!! even if we are wrong, just smile and get over it. learn from it.
from the moment, i stood up and told Marcus "let's go", i feel something lifted up from my heart. like a burden was gone. i felt a much stronger peace, a much simpler mind, and my thoughts cleared off.
had a really great service. Pastor Kevin was great! Just realised that i am not boring :D heng ar! LOL.
when i got home, i was stepping in front of the gate. i heard my mum's voice. i told God, "God, give me strength"
and i opened the door and went in.
i told myself not to say anything, just keep quiet.
it lasted for 45mins, and the worse thing is, i nearly fell asleep. LOL
i was feeling so drowsy! you gotta understand mann, i woke up at 6.55am for BMT. HAHA.
felt so tired, but energised again when i worshipped God.
felt my faith rising, and my hopes too (:
i think, it really matters to trust and convictions.
i really gotta trust God WITH ALL MY LIFE. even if it means the ability to go church against my parent's will. I gotta lay down my life! ALL my life!
Convictions, what can i say?
felt that i was spiralling down for quite awhile.
but not anymore.
i think probably, this is because God is in this period of really toughening me up, really strenghten me and building me.
of all the things that was hurled at me, i was able to maintain. its just the period before the hurling part that i have to decide if i wanted to be hurled at.
decision changes our life. i cant afford to be indecisive!!
theres so much in my life that i need to change. i suddenly felt like a new christian. haha! i am already one year old. i still dont have what it takes to be a PTL just yet...
when situations get out of hand,
i think i gotta really stay calm. if things the day before happened, i didnt got upset the next day.i think i must learn on the situation itself to keep my emotions under control.
bye guys. today was such a day.
i thank God for His presence, His power. i thank Him for giving me great friends.
thanks Marcus. (: Love you mann. haha.
bye! (:
the fight of PO. continues...
i managed to made it for BMT(A), but i was intending to go for main service as well.
BMT ended at 12noon. and the whole thing was quite a rush with 5mins of break in between. lol.
when BMT ended,went down with Aaron. at first we wanted to buy green tea for Cheryl, then realised that we didnt have the money. haha.
When we were in NTUC, this was what happened...
called mum, asked if i can go for main...
she shouted me down...
in long johns: "Should i go or not ar??" *talking to myself*
alright, i will go no matter the cost.
my conviction, from today onwards, is THIS: I will respond to the call of God, no matter what the cost,i will go for Him!!!!
then i was determined, despite knowing that i would get into trouble.
then my sister called, and told something about being wise, which was quite true. and i hesitated. really hesitated. i started to doubt, to waver, shaken so powerfully that i lost sight, and i was so confused.
sorry Marcus, i let you see the emo side of me. haha...
at that point, i seriously didnt thought of anything else, except for : next week bmt, shouts,quarrels, cold war, dissapointments.
i felt so lost at that time and i got so confused. my mind wasnt right, it went straight off the main road.
at that time, i didnt even thought of seeking God. gosh.
i just sat there, lost. stared. debated.
went to macs with Marcus, had a great talk with him.
at that point, i was, completely, lost. i didnt even had a clear thinking. i was worked up, nervous, heart pumping like crazy, swallowed lots of saliva, you can tell how worked-up i was at that time. haha.
i think, what Marcus said was quite true, which really impacted me alot.
Walk this Christian walk and never look back.(by Pastor Lia)Dont look to the left, to the right, just FOCUS on God!!! even if we are wrong, just smile and get over it. learn from it.
from the moment, i stood up and told Marcus "let's go", i feel something lifted up from my heart. like a burden was gone. i felt a much stronger peace, a much simpler mind, and my thoughts cleared off.
had a really great service. Pastor Kevin was great! Just realised that i am not boring :D heng ar! LOL.
when i got home, i was stepping in front of the gate. i heard my mum's voice. i told God, "God, give me strength"
and i opened the door and went in.
i told myself not to say anything, just keep quiet.
it lasted for 45mins, and the worse thing is, i nearly fell asleep. LOL
i was feeling so drowsy! you gotta understand mann, i woke up at 6.55am for BMT. HAHA.
felt so tired, but energised again when i worshipped God.
felt my faith rising, and my hopes too (:
i think, it really matters to trust and convictions.
i really gotta trust God WITH ALL MY LIFE. even if it means the ability to go church against my parent's will. I gotta lay down my life! ALL my life!
Convictions, what can i say?
felt that i was spiralling down for quite awhile.
but not anymore.
i think probably, this is because God is in this period of really toughening me up, really strenghten me and building me.
of all the things that was hurled at me, i was able to maintain. its just the period before the hurling part that i have to decide if i wanted to be hurled at.
decision changes our life. i cant afford to be indecisive!!
theres so much in my life that i need to change. i suddenly felt like a new christian. haha! i am already one year old. i still dont have what it takes to be a PTL just yet...
when situations get out of hand,
i think i gotta really stay calm. if things the day before happened, i didnt got upset the next day.i think i must learn on the situation itself to keep my emotions under control.
bye guys. today was such a day.
i thank God for His presence, His power. i thank Him for giving me great friends.
thanks Marcus. (: Love you mann. haha.
bye! (:
the fight of PO. continues...
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Hey guys first time blogging on iPhone !! So cool. I felt the urge to share with you guys something. I found the reason for my po. And why God has allowed po into my life. Frankly speaking I don't blame God for what happened to me. Cos I trust God that He has a plan for me. Which I want to share with you guys now.recently thoughts of status often came into my mind. When people that rises up faster than I am, plus they are a younger Christian than i am, I start to think, was k spritually imatured? Was i incapable in some way? But the answer starts with my po. As we know, po disables our availability very much, and what church is looking for Is availability. Since I have po, I am greatly hindered with alot of church events and I cannot handle lots of important stuff, if last minute becos of my po, the whole thing crashed, that wouldn't be good isn't it. But why ? Why did God allow po into my life to stop me from rising up, and even let my dad know that I have been going to church and handicap me from even going to church? God knows that I have been thinking too much about status. He saw that I was serving with the wrong mindset. He wanted me to come back to serve Him, for no leadership, but to be satisfied to serve Him just as we want to serve Him. Recently I found out that my hunger for God is slightly dropping off. God wanted me to understand that serving Him must not be of for the status. But jus for what he had done and added and impacted my life, i want to serve Him. This christian walk is meant to be simple. We should not be serving just for the sake for title. The more we try to prove ourselves to people that we can be a leader and neglect the heart of serving God, the more
we won't rise up. Instead, why don't we just keep doing what we have been doing, and prove to God that we will be faithful in these things despite the status, and tell God that we will try our best to learn. God sees it and He will allow you to rise up. Growth is in God's hand and He will decide when to let you grow. God works in funny ways, yet productive than all our ways. I have found such goodness in God, have you? I encourage you to seek the goodness of God today :)
we won't rise up. Instead, why don't we just keep doing what we have been doing, and prove to God that we will be faithful in these things despite the status, and tell God that we will try our best to learn. God sees it and He will allow you to rise up. Growth is in God's hand and He will decide when to let you grow. God works in funny ways, yet productive than all our ways. I have found such goodness in God, have you? I encourage you to seek the goodness of God today :)
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Hey guys! i brokethrough! YES
despite being stopped in going, i still managed to go service yesterday, served in usher. it WAS SUCH A DAY.
yet my mum still dont know about it, haha...
but nothing is gonna stop me from coming to God.
God is my life.
I am afraid of offending my parents when i go church, i am afraid that they will be dissapointed if i go church, i am afraid that they will scold me if i go church, i am afraid that they will be angry if i go church. but i am more afraid of losing and dissapointing God if i didnt go church.
dont stop me. please.
i cant be stopped anyway (:
i am just a God-addict.
let me satisfy my own addiction.
despite being stopped in going, i still managed to go service yesterday, served in usher. it WAS SUCH A DAY.
yet my mum still dont know about it, haha...
but nothing is gonna stop me from coming to God.
God is my life.
I am afraid of offending my parents when i go church, i am afraid that they will be dissapointed if i go church, i am afraid that they will scold me if i go church, i am afraid that they will be angry if i go church. but i am more afraid of losing and dissapointing God if i didnt go church.
dont stop me. please.
i cant be stopped anyway (:
i am just a God-addict.
let me satisfy my own addiction.
Thursday, September 03, 2009
hey guys, life has not been very smooth sailing for me. haha
but i refuse to be emo, or to be sad or go crazy. i will breakthrough.
my Physics spa is SCREWED! my graph, i drew a curve instead of a best-fit line. OH MAN.
my instant noodle was screwed just now. too much boiling water, then the soup overflow.
worst of all.
my dad found out that i have been going to church.
and now, its gonna be awhile before i can go back. BUT I TRUST GOD.
God has been in my life for so long, if i cant even tust him, who else can i trust?
this is not a season of stopping me from going to church,oor unlikiness. this is a season of breakthrough.
i believe, and i trust in God. God is an awesome God.
i believe. i believe. i believe.
but i refuse to be emo, or to be sad or go crazy. i will breakthrough.
my Physics spa is SCREWED! my graph, i drew a curve instead of a best-fit line. OH MAN.
my instant noodle was screwed just now. too much boiling water, then the soup overflow.
worst of all.
my dad found out that i have been going to church.
and now, its gonna be awhile before i can go back. BUT I TRUST GOD.
God has been in my life for so long, if i cant even tust him, who else can i trust?
this is not a season of stopping me from going to church,oor unlikiness. this is a season of breakthrough.
i believe, and i trust in God. God is an awesome God.
i believe. i believe. i believe.