Tuesday, October 27, 2009
hey guys, a long time since i blogged. i just feel this urge, to say something long, yet i know that no one would have that much time to listen to this.. hhaa.
i feel sad.
sad, not for myself, but for the sheeps that are following God.some people gets saved, excited for God, and love God till they are willing to go to the end of the earth, yet not long later, they tell themselves God is not real and they leave Him.
what do people treat God for?
i just feel quite angry for God, that many people has been touched by His love, and experienced countless blessings and breakthroughs with Him, yet in the end they curse God and leave Him. what do they take God for?
my God is a merciful one, bless Him.
i wont deny that i have thoughts of backsliding.
but i am still standing strong here, though sometimes i struggle, i struggle with all my might and faith to keep myself alive in Him. life is like this, we HAVE to struggle at times!
sometimes, its just really encounters that shows you how much you love Him and love people.
last saturday, i nearly had twice of a car accident, i shall not elaborate further, but this though ran across my head : if i am not there anymore, lesser lives willl be saved and touched by God. i dont want that.
i refuse to die until i get as many lives saved. i know one day God is going to call me up. i will accept it, but i shall look forward. the legacy and foundations i have laid will be kept on by the future generation.
how many times i had failed.
yet He still tells me.
"See, i have this day set you over the nations, and over the kingdoms, to root out and to pull down, to destroy and to pull down, to build and to plant." Jeremiah 1:10
i just feel something is stirring inside. something is moving my heart so much.
I do ask myself, am i loving God and people enough? and its this feelings and emotions, and circumstances that tells me, yes, you are.
I am a failure before Him, but i am His prince, His Son in His eyes.
God, people can fall away, but i will not, i refuse.
even if theres 10000001 reasons to doubt you.
i will still have 1 reason to worship you.
and thats all because of you.
its all because of you
and what you have done.
i feel sad.
sad, not for myself, but for the sheeps that are following God.some people gets saved, excited for God, and love God till they are willing to go to the end of the earth, yet not long later, they tell themselves God is not real and they leave Him.
what do people treat God for?
i just feel quite angry for God, that many people has been touched by His love, and experienced countless blessings and breakthroughs with Him, yet in the end they curse God and leave Him. what do they take God for?
my God is a merciful one, bless Him.
i wont deny that i have thoughts of backsliding.
but i am still standing strong here, though sometimes i struggle, i struggle with all my might and faith to keep myself alive in Him. life is like this, we HAVE to struggle at times!
sometimes, its just really encounters that shows you how much you love Him and love people.
last saturday, i nearly had twice of a car accident, i shall not elaborate further, but this though ran across my head : if i am not there anymore, lesser lives willl be saved and touched by God. i dont want that.
i refuse to die until i get as many lives saved. i know one day God is going to call me up. i will accept it, but i shall look forward. the legacy and foundations i have laid will be kept on by the future generation.
how many times i had failed.
yet He still tells me.
"See, i have this day set you over the nations, and over the kingdoms, to root out and to pull down, to destroy and to pull down, to build and to plant." Jeremiah 1:10
i just feel something is stirring inside. something is moving my heart so much.
I do ask myself, am i loving God and people enough? and its this feelings and emotions, and circumstances that tells me, yes, you are.
I am a failure before Him, but i am His prince, His Son in His eyes.
God, people can fall away, but i will not, i refuse.
even if theres 10000001 reasons to doubt you.
i will still have 1 reason to worship you.
and thats all because of you.
its all because of you
and what you have done.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
heey guys!!! yesterday was the coolest day ever! this is the firrst time we had hanged out with cheryl for so long, and for so FUN!!!!! arcade and movies are THE BEST.
be warned.
if you are going to watch 500 days of summer, please change your mind mann.
during the movie, i smsed Cheryl and asked her if she was sleeping. HAHA.
she asked me if people on my left enjoyed the movie.
and i said, "yep, they seem quite interested"
She said "haha, good"
and i exclaimed "No... if they are interested in this kind of show, its so wrong. haha. "
oh well, thats just the world, we are just seeking to be entertained, but i think for me, its not the right kind of entertainment. should have ATE meatballs, erm sorry, watch meatballs. HAHA.
its awesome man, you shld look at the photos that we have in Cheryl's facebook. hanging out with cheryl is the MOST FUN THING ever!
hahahahaha (: wanna be like her! next time leading my own CG, just going out with my friends and really building relationship and learning from each other and knowing each other. Its awesome man!
fourth dimension is such a great book mann (: i am going to try praying more spiritually, more powerfully later. (:
2 Timothy 3:13-14
But evil men will grow worse and worse, deceiving and being deceived. But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned.
a verse that God gave me when i was doubting. when you doubt, just dont care! just keep telling yourself, i have learned this from pastor, my leaders and they learnt from God, so i can trust them and be assured. and just keep doing what you have been doing! dont be afraid, just keep doing! (:
just keep on keeping on! (:
be warned.
if you are going to watch 500 days of summer, please change your mind mann.
during the movie, i smsed Cheryl and asked her if she was sleeping. HAHA.
she asked me if people on my left enjoyed the movie.
and i said, "yep, they seem quite interested"
She said "haha, good"
and i exclaimed "No... if they are interested in this kind of show, its so wrong. haha. "
oh well, thats just the world, we are just seeking to be entertained, but i think for me, its not the right kind of entertainment. should have ATE meatballs, erm sorry, watch meatballs. HAHA.
its awesome man, you shld look at the photos that we have in Cheryl's facebook. hanging out with cheryl is the MOST FUN THING ever!
hahahahaha (: wanna be like her! next time leading my own CG, just going out with my friends and really building relationship and learning from each other and knowing each other. Its awesome man!
fourth dimension is such a great book mann (: i am going to try praying more spiritually, more powerfully later. (:
2 Timothy 3:13-14
But evil men will grow worse and worse, deceiving and being deceived. But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned.
a verse that God gave me when i was doubting. when you doubt, just dont care! just keep telling yourself, i have learned this from pastor, my leaders and they learnt from God, so i can trust them and be assured. and just keep doing what you have been doing! dont be afraid, just keep doing! (:
just keep on keeping on! (:
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Hey guys. just felt like blogging, about F23.
F23 to me is not only just a CG, its like a family, when i know about that we are going to split CG, i was both sad, yet excited (:
its been around a year since i was in F23. i remember i came at around this point of date into F23 when Samantha asked me if i wanted to join F23. i was initially afraid, but i was quite assured when i knew Jordan. he was a really nice guy and he encouraged me to jump with him during zone f service. and i did. hahah. that was my first time jumping, and it was a good experience, now you want me to jump in church, i can do so anytime. HAHA. F23 was a great family to me and i never forget about it. i grew to become closer with Nicholas, and he soon became my leader. The first CG i attended was in december. i remembered Cheryl commented about me being a "friend producer". and apparently everyone laughed about it. HAHA. it was a week after i came into F23 and it was me and my denzel's birthday. then the CG celebrated our birthday for us (:
a few months had passed and i remembered that i shared testimony at main service in Feb with Nick and Jordan.
F23 had been such a great place for me to learn and to grow so much closer to God. it was amazing (: i believe that F61 is going to be a place to grow others as well, just the way i had grown in F23.
i love F23
and i love F61.
The Future Is Gonna Be Amazing (:
F23 to me is not only just a CG, its like a family, when i know about that we are going to split CG, i was both sad, yet excited (:
its been around a year since i was in F23. i remember i came at around this point of date into F23 when Samantha asked me if i wanted to join F23. i was initially afraid, but i was quite assured when i knew Jordan. he was a really nice guy and he encouraged me to jump with him during zone f service. and i did. hahah. that was my first time jumping, and it was a good experience, now you want me to jump in church, i can do so anytime. HAHA. F23 was a great family to me and i never forget about it. i grew to become closer with Nicholas, and he soon became my leader. The first CG i attended was in december. i remembered Cheryl commented about me being a "friend producer". and apparently everyone laughed about it. HAHA. it was a week after i came into F23 and it was me and my denzel's birthday. then the CG celebrated our birthday for us (:
a few months had passed and i remembered that i shared testimony at main service in Feb with Nick and Jordan.
F23 had been such a great place for me to learn and to grow so much closer to God. it was amazing (: i believe that F61 is going to be a place to grow others as well, just the way i had grown in F23.
i love F23
and i love F61.
The Future Is Gonna Be Amazing (: